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The moment I met you,
I stopped aging.
And began maturing.
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Literature
I wish I could forget you.
To be honest, there is no other way to go about it.. I'm downright terrible when it comes to remembering someones' name. Especially when I'm expected to recall more than one name within the first five or ten seconds after I just met somebody. I remember during my whole childhood, it made me slightly uncomfortable whenever it was the start of a new year because there would be new people in class. Children that I had never met before. Luckily nobody ever talked to me though, I would have felt extremely rude if I had to ask the same person for their name for the fifth or sixth time.
Faces, however.. It's a whole different story when it comes down to faces. Seven out of ten times I'm pretty sure that I'll remember someone's face for the rest of my life even if all other aspects about them have long faded from my mind. I always seem to be the one at home that points at the TV-screen and goes like "....I have seen him or her before.." Even if I couldn't even remember at the moment which othe
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Borderline.
You just kept on pushing my luck-
Until I fell of the edge of an endless abyss.
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Recovery.
I didn't need all those years of therapy.
I didn't need all those pills filled with crap that are supposed to help you cope.
I didn't need to work out and get fit through the exercise of sports.
I didn't need to give EMDR treatment a chance.
I didn't need to be told I'm lazy and I didn't need to be forced to get up and do something.
I didn't need a job supposedly to 'distract' myself from what was going on.
I didn't need a million people around me in order to feel better.
I didn't need to go back to school to get my life back on track.
I needed understanding.
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Game over.
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D         n   g ________D        n   g______ . . .D e a d.
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Literature
If I didn't care about you:
Then why am I still checking your profile..
Ten years after we stopped talking?
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Literature
Betrayals' sacrifice.
I may have jumped in front of the train.
But it was you who threw me under the buss.
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Literature
To live, or to die..
Maybe I should live.
Maybe I should kill myself.
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Literature
A Fresh Start.
I'm giving myself a second chance because you didn't.
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Literature
Hypocrite.
You blame me of the same things you do.
But, if only you had asked, I would've told you everything.
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Literature
Nightmare.
The hardest lesson was,
Losing you.
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Nevermore.
"Talk soon!"
But we never spoke again.
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Literature
Ironic.
When I told you I love you, you didn't believe me.
I never told you I no longer loved you, but somehow, you believe it.
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Literature
Nobody said it was easy...
Back in the days when I used to live without you.
I wish someone would've told me beforehand, that...
It wouldn't always be this easy, without you.
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Literature
Ghosts of a dark past.
I keep trying to pick up the pieces.
But I just end up cutting myself on the edges.
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I'll just hope that someday I'll reach my goal. . ;)
And if there is any people out there who are giving that would be very nice and appreaciated, I'll love you forever :love:

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~One drawing is 3 points. .
~An extra point for every aditional character.
~Photomanipulation is 2 points.
~A short fanfiction is 3 points, a meduim is 6 and a long is 10


I will be using the points to give people I look up to an 1-year premuimship, hoping to show them that way what they mean to me. If I have any points too much, I will be using that to buy DA-gifts for my friends or maybe donate them to a group for contests ^^

I think 38,336 is the ammount of Points that I need to give all 16 people an 1~year premuim account.
I calculated it with Google. .

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Pride

I AM PROUD

Made with pride by the DeviantArt community BROWSE ALL ART

10th of November 2013 

Today, around 3 PM, I lost one of the most, beautiful, honest, courageous and strongest souls I’ve ever known in my entire life; My best friend Fluffy.

He succumbed to complications due to a very, very severe cold he got earlier this week.

It started 4 days ago.

His nose was dense and completely stuffed and runny.. He had difficulties eating and drinking which resulted in him losing weight at an incredible rapid speed, he was eating only a couple of bites a day and that was by far not enough to provide him of the strength that he needed in order to recover.

We decided to give it time because when you’re so sick the way he was you don’t want anything. You don’t want food or water or anything else, you just want to be left alone and rest. And if he doesn’t eat for a day it’s fine and understandable. But if he doesn’t start eating again in 2 days my mom would need to force-feed him.

Yesterday he got weaker and in the late-afternoon (7-8 PM) he got a couple of “Seizures” because he didn’t have enough strength to stand or sit or lay on his own without falling over to one side. I texted my mom who was out bowling like she always does on Saturday and she texted back that she was going to get baby-food for him. That night we attempted to give him some but he only wanted very little of it and after that he decided it was enough and he refused to cooperate when it came to food for the most part. He did much better with water.

But today he wouldn’t do anything anymore. This morning, he still showed that combativeness and my mom told me he protested when she tried to free the area around his nose from scobs and snot.

He was now incredibly skinny, I don’t think I’ve ever seen him more malnourished than I did today.. There was absolutely nothing left in his stomach. His strength was gone. His body was shutting down and he just laid there, leaning against one of the pillows on the couch and despite that he still prolapsed until he laid completely to one side. I’ve moved him a couple of times, trying to figure out what would be the best position to sit for him to make him more comfortable.. I had him on my lap for a while, but he prolapsed. I had him sitting next to me, hoping my leg would be of any support, but he prolapsed. I placed him on a towel because it has a better structure than the bumpy blanket that I currently use to keep myself warm on the couch. That seemed to look better. 

30 minutes before his passing, my mom attempted to give him food again but this time he would hardly respond if any response was given at all. Same with the water. And then we discovered he had no teeth anymore, but he did still have his teeth this morning. So I said “Wait, what? Let me look. That’s not possible.” I honestly thought that she was trying to come up with some kind of joke or something to lighten the mood so I peeked into his mouth and nothing. I saw NO teeth at all. Only gum, but not a single teeth. He had also been having his smell of ammoniac since 2 days so I knew that everything was going really really bad.

So then I put him back on the towel and I thought about putting him down. I couldn’t let him live like this. Not being able to move, not being able to eat or drink and not even being able to lie and rest up without falling to one side. Basically his body gave up on him and life even before he did.

Then some of his body started twitching a tiny little bit. Like the kind that one can get when you’re about to fall asleep and not even 5 seconds after that his breathing stopped and that was it. Poof. Gone. Just like that. He died. He faded from existence.

I grabbed him and held him in my hands/arms and I cried.

He died a merciful death. He didn’t choke, he didn’t panic, he didn’t feel any pain. It was like going to sleep for him. He fell unconscious and he never suffered from breathing that got cut of or going into a seizure. The exact kind of death that I had pictured for him. He’s already had enough ordeals and pain in this life, his death was smoothly and very fast.

Fluffy Collection by 6YamiMarik6Lover6


My dear Fluffy-Ball.
Thanks for all the fond memories and amazing times we had together. You were a big part of my life and I won’t ever forget how you were there for me when nobody else was. I wouldn’t be here today if it hadn’t been for you. And you’ve proved all the vets wrong with their “He must be put down”-crap.

 

My hero. My love. My best friend. My everything.



You have fought well, you deserve some sleep now.
Take care and I will miss you.



??~04~04 - 10-11-13

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  • Drinking: Nothing

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"I want to talk to you, but I don't know what to say.
I am afraid you don't want me to say anything.
So I don't.
But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.
And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you.
And how I love you despite my broken heart.
And how I need you in my life.
And especially how much I want you.
But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside.
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too...
but I'll never know."

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rlouward09 Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2017
hi! guess who is back! :D 
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6YamiMarik6Lover6 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Great to see you're back! :D
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rlouward09 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2017
I missed you! :hug: :hug: Hey! :D 

Ever known Quotev or Twitter? 
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6YamiMarik6Lover6 Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yeah but I don't like Twitter and Quotev. I prefer to just keep it to DeviantART and Youtube.
But I have Skype also if you'd like to keep in better touch :3 Or facebook.

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MrtViolet Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2017
Hi ^__^
Thanks a lot for the faves~

Have a great day :la: 
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